i love him.

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so, school started, kindof lame?
i got my permit yesterday, nice.
life is boring? definitely.

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001. What is your name? Tamara
002. Spell your name backwards: aramat
003. Date of birth: 04 15 06
004. Male or female?: female
005. Astrological sign: aries
006. Nicknames: umm.. tammiee & suga tits & giggles & loverface ALOTLOTLOT more.
007. Occupation? being cool? yeah :]
008. Height: 5`8" ?
009. Weight: just about 364
010. Hair color: blonde.
011. Eye color: brown. & they turn green ?
012. Where were you born? okinawa, japan
013. Where do you reside now? cwayy :]
014. Age: 15
015. Screen names: ifxckinadoreyou
016. E-mail addy: betterlucknextyear@hotmail.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? cool.
018. What is your lj name? dont have one??
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? dont have one.
020. Pets: none. i want goldfish :|
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? i didn't have a cake ? :( i had brownies. AHA
022. Piercings? my ears
023. Tattoo's? none
024. Shoe size: 7
025. Righty or lefty? righty
026. Wearing: boxers and a tank top
027. Hearing: t.v.
028. Feeling: bored
029. Eating: nothing

Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? no
062. How many people have you told "I love you"?: um, i TOLD 2
063. How many people have you been in love with?: none?
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? nope
116. Are your parents divorced? no
117. Do you have step parents? no
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? lol, do I count ?
119. If so for what? :(
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? my mom. lol


~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? uummmm none really.
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? aha i dont own any.. anymore.
123. What's the best cd you own? none?
124. What song do you absolutely hate? ionno.
125. Do you sing in the shower? no
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? you & I collide.

~Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Title Of Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink: like a pill
128. Aerosmith: jaded
129. Madonna: like a virign
130. Korn: freak on a leash
131. Backstreet Boys: i just want you to know
132. The Beatles: lucy in the sky with diamonds OR SOMETHIN LIKE THAT.
133. Sublime: uhhh i dunno
134. J.Lo: i`m real
135. *Nsync: lmfao i dont know.
136. Limp Bizkit: nookie ;D
137. Britney Spears: everytime
138. Creed: higher
139. Enrique Iglesias: escape
140. Good Charlotte: s.o.s.
141. Christina Aguilera: dirty
142. Eminem: when i`m gone
143. New Found Glory: catalyst
144. Kelly Clarkson: because of you
145. Kelly Osbourne: papa dont preach
146. Mandy Moore: candy ? hahah
147. Eve: idk
148. Aaliyah: miss you
149. Nelly: grillz
150. Alicia Keys: if i aint got you
151. Incubus: pardon me


~Favorites~
152. Color[s]: navy blue & brown.
153. Food: chicken alfredo
154. Song: the kill -30 seconds to mars, emily -from first to last, smile in your sleep -silverstein, chasing cars -snow patrol, dope boy magic -yung joc, & money on my mindddd -lil wayne. aha :]
155. Show: RENO 911 ;)
156. School subject: drivers ed. aha
157. Band/singer: um, does young joc count ? ;)
158. Animal: elephant
159. Outfit: i like my victorias secret hoodie :]
160. Radio station: 93.5 105.9 107.9
161. Movie: seven, you me and dupree, forrest gump, the ringer, HAROLD & KUMAR go to white castle :]
162. Pair of shoes: my filas, duh.
163. Cartoon: idk :]
164. Actor: adam sandler
165. Actress: scarlett johansson
166. Potato chip: cheddar cheese ruffles :x
167. Drink: yoohoo :D
168. Alcholic drink: smirnoff triple black or grey goose :]
169. Holiday: halloween or valentines
170. Perfume/cologne: hollister august, escada perfect paradise
171. Pizza topping: sausage ? if i EVEN eat pizza
172. Jello flavor: lemon
173. Lunch meat: uhh, ham?
174. Board game: candyland :D
175. Video game: mario cart 64
176. Picturessss: ..iono?
177. Book: scribbler of dreams, go ask alice
178. Computer game: dont have one ?
179. Number: 09
180. Cereal: honey nut cheerios
181. Comedian: carlos mencia :D ellen degeneres
182. Dessert: french vanilla icecream
183. Disney character: dumbo.
184. Clothing store: hco, ae
185. Passtime: spending time with my best friends
186. Teacher: idk about this year. last year was coach springer
187. Childhood toy: power rangers action figures and barbies.aha
188. Carnival game/ride: ferris wheel :]
189. Candy bar: mr.goodbar
190. Magazine: dont have one
191. Salad dressing: ranch
192. Thing to do on the weekend: hanging out with friendsss =)
193. Hot drink: hot chocolate duh
194. Season: winter.
195. Sport to watch: k. i love watching football
196. Person to talk to online: RICHIEE.


~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? pink
198. What color are your bedroom walls? off white.
199. Do you have posters on your wall? one
200. If so of what? hahah my happy birthday poster from laura. & the sign tayla made.
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yea
202. How many pillows are on your bed? 10 difference sized ones
203. What do you normally sleep in? shorts and a tank top
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: my boxers :]
205. What size bed do you have? queen
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? um, an extra comfortable bed :D
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? nopeeeee.
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? nah
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: about this guy finding the love of his life :(
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? uh, there are 2 but they usually fall on the ground
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 3
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? i cuddle? :]
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? no
214. Do you snore? hah, i dont know. probably. :x
215. How about drool? no
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? i dont even have a clock.
217. What color is the carpet in your room? green
218. What's under your bed? haha i have no idea? just stuff?


~This or that~
219. beach/mountains: beach
220. Donuts/bagels: donuts
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: north west :x
223. Heaven/hell: heaven
224. Blonde/Brunette: brunette
225. Coffee/tea: coffee
228. Britney/Christina: neither. ;)
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: i hate cheese.
230. Real World/Road Rules: =O neither :D
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: bsb
232. Silver/gold: gold
233. Nike/Adidas: nike
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: mcdonalds. fuck da mexicann food :]
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: ha, emo ?
237. Hot/cold: cold.
238. Winter/summer: winter
239. Spring/fall: spring
240. Operas/plays: plays
241. Read/watch tv: read
242. Cd's/tapes: cds
243. Dvd's/vhs: dvds
244. Old/new: new
245. Shorts/skirts: shorts
246. Pink/red: pink
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: black & whitee.
248. Meat/vegetables: meat
249. Mexican food/chinese food: chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: commercials
251. Scary movies/comedies: scary
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: bikini.
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: tennis shoes
254. Dogs/cats: dogs.
255. Unicorns/fairies: unicorns!
256. Water/land: water
257. Sugar/spice: suggga
258. Black/white: black
259. ribbons/bows: bows :D
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: white :]
262. Cars/trucks: SUVS :O
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: austin.
264. Popcorn/pretzels: soft pretzels.
265. Hip/hop: ..
266. Passionate kiss/peck: passionate
267. WWE wrestling/real wrestling: none
268. Back rub/foot massage: back
269. Picture frames/photo albums: albums
270. Pens/pencils: pencils


~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
271. Eminem: hott.
272. Virgins: lucky :(
273. God: love him.
274. The Osbournes: crazycrazycrazy people.
275. Reality TV: gay! :]
276. J.Lo: lame.. ? but pretty :]
277. Religion: everyone should go to church.
278. Rap music: love itt.
279. Valentine's Day: love it too.
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: ew
281. Homosexuals: go for it ?
282. Abortion: no.
283. Inter-racial relationships: lol. idk ?
284. Murder: i wanna kill someone.
285. Death: it happens
286. Obesity: sad :(
287. Pre-marital sex: stick with abstinence until marriage.
288. Terrorism: eek
289. Abusers: no. >:|
290. Fortune tellers: crazyy
291. Balding: SCARY
292. Prostitution: stds ;)
293. Politics: lame
294. Country music: annoying
295. George W. Bush: love him :]
296. Cloning: no. i would HATE clones.
297. Britney's boobs: ...
298. Gas prices in America: bad :(

~Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?.
299. Jack: jill!
300. Tiffany: my home girll ;)
301. Ben: jamin
302. Maria: some mexican lady hanging up clothes on a clothes line.
303. Jennifer: bearden
304. Nicole: ask
305. Amy: ehrichs
306. Adam: and eve :D
307. Richard: RICHIE
308. Justin: thompson
309. Arnold: hey wheres arnold?
310. Tom: MYSPACE
311. Melissa: rhymes with sista
312. Charlotte: 's web.
313. Harold: harold and kumar go to white castle :D
314. John: doe. ahah
315. Joel: hill
316. Vanessa: carlton ? aha
317. Michelle: averion
318. Kevin: steinzor
319. Brent: hottie.
320. Jake: my boo =O HAHA
321. Billy: goat
322. Sarah: barney
323. Natalie: no one :]
324. Christi: weird name ?
325. Nick: ew
326. Linda: ha
327. Taylor: casale :D
328. Jordan: brock
329. Jamie: linton
330. Adrian: some mexican kid

~Have You Ever....~
331. Mooned anyone? yes. aha
332. Been on a diet? not really. aha
333. Been to a foreign country? yea
334. Broken a bone? yea
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no
336. Swear at a teacher? ahah no
337. Talked to a lj member via e-mails or instant messages? no
338. Got in a fight? not a really serious one
339. Dated a teacher? no.
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? no
341. Thought about killing your enemy? no, but burning down houses & cars, yes.
342. Gone skinny dipping? yea
343. Met another Blurty member in the flesh? nope.
344. Told a little white lie? yeah
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? yea
346. Stolen anything? yea, bre is positive i`m a clepto
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? no?
348. Been on TV? gs commercial LOL
349. Been on the radio? no
350. Been in a mosh pit? no
351. Been to a concert? nope
352. Dated one of your best friends? yea
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? ah, it wasnt love?
354. Decieved somebody close to you? yea
355. Broken the law? yeah
356. Been to a rodeo? no.
357. Been on a talk show? no
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? yeah
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? i think so
361. Came close to dying? probably
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? no ;)
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? yea
364. Terrorized a babysitter? never had a babysitter?
365. Made a mud pie? yesss
366. Had a dream that our falling off a cliff? yeah, i used to ALL the time.
367. Snuck out of the house at night? yea
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yea
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yeah
372. Smoked? yeah
373. Done drugs? yea
374. Been arrested? no
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? no
377. Won a bet? yeah
378. Written a love letter? HAHA. no ?
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? yeap.
380. Written a love poem? i dont write poems.
381. Kissed in the rain? yea
382. Slow danced with someone you love? no, i don't love him, but that guy... yeah, he owes me one still.
383. Loved someone: yea i love someone.
384. tired of this quiz? kindof?
385. Stolen a kiss? aha sure?
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yea
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? yeah
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? no
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? no
390. Done jail time? nope
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? i dont work. aha
392. Won a trophy? yea
393. Thrown up in public? no
394. Bowled a perfect game? not even half a perfect.
395. Failed/got held back? no
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? no
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? no.
398. Taken ballet lessons? no
399. Attempted suicide? no..
400. Cut yourself? nope. but tayla and bre and trent have cut me before


~Childhood Stuff~
401. Did you play with Barbies? yea that was my homie
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls? yes!
404. Did you play Simon? no
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock? no
406. Did you wet the bed? LOL maybe?
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? yes, and according to krystyna... the other day i thought there were elves under there :x aha
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? no
409. Were you shy? yeah
410. Were you spoiled? chea
411. Were you abused? no
412. Did you go to the circus? nuh uh
413. Did you go to the zoo? yea
414. Were you in a car accident? nope
415. Did you build snowmen? no
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? yea
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? nope
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? yea
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? yepp. lol
420. Were you afraid of the dark? yuh
421. Did you have slumber parties? no.
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, ect.? nope
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? no?
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? mhmm

~Randomness~
425. Do you believe in aliens? no
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: a hilighter, a speaker, and a picture frame.
427. Do you have any hidden talents? yea
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? yeah, and they do.
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? a funny one
430. What would your movie star name be? tambonquisha
431. Do you play any sports? not anymore
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? dunno? seven?
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? you me and dupree
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? the grudge.
435. Do you drive? no. i got my permit yesterday though :]
436. What is your dream car? haha a black cadillac escalade.. wood grain & in the inside. ON 24's with asanti rims :]
437. Do you think your good looking? i kindof did before i got my iD card picture taken
438. Do others think you are good looking? yea i guess
439. Would you ever sky dive? no. not anytime soon
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? no way
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? 5
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? no. i love them
443. Do you believe in God? yes
444. Do you believe in Satan? yeah
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? yeap
446. Do you believe there is a hell? yeap
447. Do you own a pooltable? no
448. Do you have a pool? yea
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? chea
450. Do you like chocolate? yep
451. Who/what is on your 2004 calendar? dont have one.
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? uhh. over 30.
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? yep. i saw one with krystyna :] and a few a few years ago
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? my jasmine one in preschool :D
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? LOL no
456. What is your weakness? him >:|
457. Name something you can't get enough of: being with my lovelies.
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: pretty flippin awesome. aha ;)
459. How many kids do you want to have? 3
460. Future daughters names: lexy lane
461. Future sons names: landen ray
462. What is your ideal way to die? idk
463. How do you release stress? count to 10. aha it works
464. Are you a trendy person? no ?
465. Are you an artisitic person? yes
466. Are you a realistic person? yeah
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? no.
468. Are you a strong person? yeah i guess
469. Are you a strong willed person? yeep
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? jessie stangl :]
471. Who is the last person to IM you? hong :D
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? yeah, thats why i never check my email.
473. Are you a deep sleeper? not at all
474. Are you a good story teller? yes lol
475. What do you believe is your best quality?: i`m understanding
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? being able to become a strong person when no one else thought i could. not even myself
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? no ?
478. Do you do yoga? no
479. Do you have your own credit card? no.
480. Let's say you win the lotto. give some to church :] and charities. and then i`ll spend some and save some. aha
481. Do you have a check book? no
482. Do you like your driver? bryan? i love him :]
483. Do you tan easily? not really
484. What color is your hair naturally? dark dark dark redish brown
485. How many fillings do you have? like 2 ?
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? none
487. Worst feeling in the world? having to stop loving someone cause they stopped loving you.
488. Best feeling in the world? the feeling that everything is perfect in life
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? half empty
490. Last thing you downloaded? a song ?
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? i used to by accident. not anymore
492. What do you think people think of you? i dont care.
493. Are you a likeable person? yeah
494. Do you need therapy? LOL for my bipolar-ness :|
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? LOL no
496. What the best way to be proposed to? um, on the beach :D
497. What kind of movie would you star in? funny.
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? nope. up sex
499. When are you moving? right when i`m 18.
500. What's your favorite phrase? i dont give a fuck. aha:x

today was nice, i hung out with my favoritee people<3
i'm single now.
that's cool.

yeah i'm done with xanga.
I need to do something with my life.

this whole entire past year, I have COMPLETELY wasted.

on anything and everything.

These streets turn me inside out
Everything shines, but leaves me empty still
And I'll burn this lonely house down if you run with me
If you run with me

I'll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
Take my hand now
We'll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I'll stay with you

Fooled by my own desires
I twist my fate just to feel you
But you turn me toward the light
& you're one with me
Will you run with me?

And I finally found that

life goes on without you

when you're not around

mine & krystyna's one year was friday :)
I had a greattttt day with her.
i FN love that girl<3 050505<3

last night was great =)
i hungg out with krystyna sean and ryan for a lil while.
then other people got there. so i hung out with all them
& i got to hanggg out with my wonderful boyfriend :)

freakin
great :)

i`ll update later.
since i have not much to say.

050505<3 bf4l<3
041506<3 andrew<3

if I can't hear your heartbeat,

you`re too far away

happy birthday to me =))

recent pics :)
-shelby & me
-krystyna & me
-amy & her favoriteee of seans puppies. hah
fasho.
-me, duh.
-my bff dj =))
-me & hizzaleyyy in 8pd.
-hah, me in sewing class.
-picturessss i took, & YES, allen is supposed to be in the background, he just doesn`t know =O
-andree` & me

well here`s an update on life;
school - my grades are ok, they could be better. & i deff. need to try harder. otherwise, school's good =)
family - mhmm, stuff w.the family is better.. they`re nicer now ? which is cool.
friends - yep, i`ve been spending more time w.my closest friends lately, it`s great =)
boys - ha. andrew <3

yeah, so i`ve changed quite a bit over the past few weeks. people grow up, i`ve done it, everyone else should too. that whole drama stage with  me is over. yeah ok i know i`ve talked crap & i know that i`ve been in alot of drama, but EVERYONES done it, it`s not a freakin crime. i don`t care about my past. it`s my future that still matters. so most of you quit thinking you know me or what i`m gonna do or what i`ve said in the past. cause you DON`T know me, you don`t know how i`m gonna act, & anything i`ve done in the past doesn`t mean anything anymore.

anyways, here`s an update on my day todayy for my birthday.

woke up. or whatever. then amy came over.. & we went and picked up chelsea & sean. & dj went along too =) we went to pineapple willys.. then the beach. mhm it was funn. but chelsea locked allens keys in his car. so we had to go back to my house & get them. funny stuffffff. but yeah.. then allen went to someone elses birthday party, so me & amy & chelsea went to seans for a lil while.. then he took us home =). so me & her hung out here for a little while & then sean andrew mike josh & joe came over. and we sat in my backyard for a little while. yea they just lefttt too. but my birthdayy wasn`t that bad =). i hadd fun.

but there`s really nothing else to say.
i`ll update when something spontaneous happens.
who knows when =O

Y041506<3